No fear, yeah right!

It's been an interesting week. Or stressful. Maybe chaotic. Not sure what word I'm looking for. Guess I need to go pull that thesaurus back out. Whatever it is, it hasn't been a normal week, that's for sure. It started out in a bad way when I was informed that the book fair my daughter has been working on for months might get canceled. The location that they had secured was suddenly not available anymore. Turns out that the principle booked the school for two events on the same day. The book fair and a class reunion. So I helped her start looking for a new location. Not as easy as it sounds. The local libraries wouldn't allow it because we have vendors. (we're raising money for FCCLA. Of course we have vendors.) Every other place we called or visited charged more than the kids could afford. They literally don't have a budget. It was starting to look pretty grim. We made a plan to approach some of the other schools to see if we could use their facilities. They weren't as great as the first one and their tables were bench style, which was going to be hard to use. But it was better than nothing. Today was going to be the day to drive around and find a spot. Well, it didn't happen. Why, you ask. Because the class reunion committee kindly postponed their date so we could keep ours. (thank you class reunion guys! I mean it) So the fair is back on. I am relieved. Not just for the kids and the hard work they did, because that really is important. But also for all the authors who are participating in one way or another. I will have a table for my books, as will another fellow author who is driving here from Salina. Almost 20 other authors have donated books and other items for the book fair. There is a lot riding on this, and I would feel terrible if it all fell apart. So I am relieved and almost stress free. Almost. Well, not quite. You see, tomorrow is my first ever book signing, and let me tell you my nerves are shot. I am so nervous. I'm not a good speaker. When I get in front of a crowd, I freeze up. I forget what to say, I don't speak loud enough, and I am always scared to death. Nervous doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. So I hope that this isn't the beginning of the end as I stumble all over myself in front of potential fans. Hopefully they are forgiving and don't walk away wondering what the fuss was all about. Silly girl. Thinks she's an author. No really, I am excited. But it is scary, and weird. Weird because they are making a big deal of it. Press release, signs outside with my name plastered all over it, like I'm some kind of big celebrity or something. I'm not. It's a little overwhelming, and to someone as shy as I am, just a little embarrassing. So, I guess tomorrow night we'll all find out if I'm cut out for it or not. Wish me luck, because I think I'm gonna need it.